The Other Alice
For Julia, who loves stories,
and for anyone who has ever wished
a fictional character could be real.
Once Upon a Time . . .
ALICE SILVER HAD NEVER MET anyone who had killed before, but that changed on the day Dorothy Grimes walked past the window of Alice’s favourite coffee shop.
Alice had been sitting at the smallest table, staring anxiously at her notebook. It was open on the table next to her coffee, which had gone cold, because she’d forgotten to drink it. She turned the notebook’s pages, reading over her work.
Words swam before her eyes, the same words she had written weeks, months ago, and had read through many times since. She didn’t even know if they made sense any more.
She was tired. Her head ached, her neck ached, even her eyes ached. Irritable, she flicked to the pages at the front. The writing here wasn’t quite as dense: it was mainly lists and diagrams, and snippets she had stuck in, such as photographs or pictures from magazines. One of these, a news article, had come loose over time and slipped out on to the table. Alice picked it up, scanning the headline she knew by heart.
YOUNG KILLER
LOCKED UP FOR LIFE
The cutting was over two years old now, but Alice still remembered all the details. They had shocked her deeply – and everyone else in the country. The thought that someone her age – just sixteen – could murder five people in such horrible ways was not something that could be forgotten easily. In fact, the killings were what made this case an oddity. Most murderers use the same method to kill each time. This one was different. There had been one strangulation, one bludgeoning, a stabbing, a drowning, and a house fire that had been set deliberately.
She turned the cutting over. On the back was part of another story about a teenage girl who had won a prize for keeping a diary for a year. Alice remembered how she had been holding the cutting to the light, allowing the words on the other side of the thin paper to show through. How words from the two different articles had combined to form ‘kill ’.
Kill diary.
That was how she’d got the idea to combine both articles to make a truly memorable character for the story she was working on: a killer who kept a written log of her murders, framing each one as a piece of fiction.
Alice shivered. Sometimes the best ideas came about by accident, and this was one of them. A few tweaks here and there, a new name, a few different murder methods. It was surprisingly easy to think it all up. Alice wondered, not for the first time, if she were a wicked person for imagining such terrible things, but she supposed that all storybook villains had to come from someone’s imagination. After all, what was the point of a villain if they were not scary?
She put the cutting down and closed her eyes, massaging her temples. Words floated in the dark space behind her eyelids. Even when her eyes were shut, there was no escape. They surrounded her like a prison, but she knew the only way she would get free was with more words. The right ones. The trouble was she didn’t know them. She’d written herself into a corner and she had no idea how to finish the story. And now she was starting to worry about what would happen if she didn’t. Not just because all her hard work would be wasted, but what would happen to her.
Alice had spent the last few months telling herself that what had happened last time hadn’t been real. That she’d imagined it, that it had been the lack of sleep, the stress. Whatever it was, it had started up again in the past few days. The shadows, like someone moving just at the edge of her vision. The footsteps behind her on an empty street. The whispering.
She was afraid.
She opened her eyes, letting out a slow breath. The coffee shop was within a bookshop, up on the first floor. She did most of her writing at home, but had thought that a change of scene might help the words to flow. It hadn’t. If anything, being around so many other stories, all finished, was like a quiet form of torture. Instead of inspiring her, she imagined the other books were taunting her. She leaned closer to the window, looking out. A sharp winter draught crept in and prickled her face as she watched people moving about on the street below, unaware they were being observed.
And then it felt like all the hairs on her body were standing on end as she caught sight of a slight figure that was looking in the window of a shop opposite.
It can’t be, it can’t be, it can’t be . . .
The words pounded in Alice’s head, each one accompanied by a sickening thud of her racing heart. She stood up without even meaning to, knocking into the table. The untouched coffee slopped over the sides of the cup, speckling the notebook and the newspaper cutting. She pressed her hands to the glass, barely aware of the drip, drip, drip of liquid hitting the floor and splashing on to her boots.
She snatched her notebook up and lurched away from the window. The newspaper cutting floated to the floor, but she didn’t register it or the strange looks she was getting from other customers.
‘Not again,’ she whispered, the words catching in her throat. ‘Please, not again!’ But she still had to know for sure. She stumbled out of the coffee shop and rushed for the stairs, arriving outside the bookshop moments later. Her breath came in fast gasps, each one puffing in the frozen air.
The girl had gone. Alice turned this way and that, searching the street. Had she hallucinated the whole thing? Fallen asleep perhaps? She hadn’t slept properly for a while now—
There. Alice just caught sight of the back of her, vanishing round a corner. She followed, a chill wind making her teeth chatter. Only then did she realise she’d left her coat behind, but if she went back now she’d lose her. She caught up and drew level, trying to get a proper look at the girl’s face.
When she saw it, a small cry escaped her lips, but it was whipped away by the wind.
It was her.
She had changed her appearance since leaving the hospital. The dull brown hair that had hung in limp rats’ tails was gone and so was the dowdy hospital gown that made her look young and helpless. To anyone else she would have been almost unrecognisable . . . but not to Alice. She stumbled, bumping into someone nearby, but was too full of shock and horror to react to the cross words that were spat at her. She had read about a person’s blood running cold in many books, but now she actually felt it: the warmth draining from her toes and an icy chill working its way through her entire body like a wave.
What is she doing here? Alice thought. Does she know? Is she looking for me already?
And, almost as though Alice drew her like a magnet, the girl turned and stared at her. There was curiosity in her expression, but nothing to suggest she recognised Alice. Nothing to say she was aware of their connection although, as Alice stopped walking and became frozen to the spot, something stirred behind the girl’s eyes. Malevolence and a different kind of awareness.
She can see I’m afraid of her, Alice thought. And she likes it.
Slowly, Dorothy Grimes strode up to her, a small smile curving her lips. It became wider as Alice backed away, not even realising she was doing so until she came up against a wall.
Dorothy finally stopped, too close to Alice. So close Alice could feel her breath on her face. The sensation of it turned her stomach.
‘Have we met?’ Dorothy asked. Her voice was soft, but there was nothing gentle about it. It was soft the same way a pillow could be as it smothered you.
‘N-not . . . in person.’ The words came out as little more than a croak.
‘But you know who I am, don’t you?’
‘Yes,’ Alice whispered. ‘I know who you are.’
‘And you know what I’ve done.’
A wave of dizziness threatened to overwhelm Alice then. She swayed lightly, managing to steady herself, trying to blink away the awful images that had co
me to mind. Images of Dorothy striking a match, of squeezing someone’s throat, and of scratching crusted blood that wasn’t her own off her cheeks. Yes, Alice knew exactly what Dorothy was capable of.
‘Did you read about me in the news?’ Dorothy asked. She lowered her voice. ‘All the naughty things I’ve done?’
Alice shook her head weakly. ‘Not exactly.’
‘Then how do you know me?’ Dorothy asked.
‘I know everything about you,’ Alice whispered.
Dorothy rolled her eyes. ‘Oh, not you as well. Do you know how many doctors I’ve had to listen to, spouting that sort of rubbish? We know all about you, Dorothy,’ she mimicked. ‘You must have experienced some kind of trauma, Dorothy. We want you to keep a dream diary, Dorothy, Dorothy, Dorothy.’ She was getting worked up now, getting that glaze over her eyes. ‘Repeating my name over and over to make me think they’re my friends.’
‘I know,’ Alice said.
‘Oh, you know, do you?’ Dorothy said, her eyes gleaming.
‘I told you. I know everything about you.’ Alice sagged against the wall, her knees trembling. She wanted to run now, but felt like she was stuck in one of those dreams where, if she tried to, she’d be going in slow motion. ‘How . . . how did you get here?’
Dorothy laughed. ‘Well, if you don’t know that, you don’t know everything about me, do you?’ she mocked. ‘I followed someone. Someone who took something of mine and I want it back.’
‘Ramblebrook,’ Alice muttered.
The smile left Dorothy’s face. ‘How could you possibly know that?’ She leaned further in to Alice’s face. ‘You’d better start talking.’
So, in a few brief words, Alice told her.
Afterwards, Dorothy stared at her for a few seconds before erupting into giggles.
‘Oh, that’s good,’ she said finally, clapping her hands together. ‘Bravo! Even I couldn’t have come up with that and my plots are pretty . . . twisted, shall we say?’ She shook her head, still chuckling. ‘You actually believe that, don’t you?’
‘No . . . I know it.’
Dorothy gave a low whistle. ‘And people say I’m dotty.’ She looked impressed, envious even. ‘Girl, you are mad. You are one craaaaaazy cuckoo!’ She clucked sympathetically. ‘I don’t have to worry about you talking to anyone about me. You sound far too bonkers for anyone to believe you.’
She pushed her face even closer to Alice’s and, with that, something inside Alice snapped like a spell being broken. She lashed out with her notebook, catching Dorothy on the side of the face.
‘Get away from me – stay away! Just . . . just go back to where you came from!’ Her voice erupted from her, shrill and desperate. She hit out again, missing this time, for Dorothy ducked out of the way, and the notebook flew out of Alice’s fingers, landing with a whack on the pavement.
She threw herself towards it at the same time as a cackling Dorothy did. Panic gripped her as Dorothy reached it first, her eyes fixed on the open pages. With a gasp, Alice wrenched it away.
Without another word, she ran, swerving to avoid tripping over a black cat before fleeing into a side street. Her breath came in ragged sobs that burned her throat, but she didn’t stop. She felt as though Dorothy Grimes’s eyes were still on her, but when she looked back she saw no one except a scattering of strangers staring at her.
Alice ran, and ran, and didn’t stop until she reached her house, slamming the front door behind her and locking it. She caught sight of herself in the hallway mirror and stared. Her hair was a tangled mess, stuck to her cheeks with snot and tears. Her face was a deathly grey. But it was her eyes that were the worst. They were wild, haunted-looking. Mad-looking. And no wonder, with what she had just seen.
‘It’s not possible, it’s not . . .’ she wailed to the empty house. Her voice jarred in the silence, like a puzzle piece that wouldn’t fit.
She sank to the floor and huddled with her back to the door. Dorothy Grimes was mad; Alice knew that better than anyone. But then what did that say about her?
Could Dorothy have been right?
Was Alice even crazier than she was?
1
The Storyteller
EVERY DAY, HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE sit down and begin to write a story. Some of these stories are published and translated, and sold in bookshops all over the world. Others never make it past the first chapter – or even the first sentence – before they are given up on. And some stories are muddled, and half-written, and struggled with until eventually the writer stuffs their creation under the bed or into a drawer. There it lies, forgotten for months or years . . . or perhaps for ever. Even if it could have been the most magical adventure that anyone would ever read.
But what happens when a tale with real magic, that was supposed to be finished, never was?
This is a story about one of those stories. It begins a long time ago when I was just eleven years old, back when I was known as Midge. Back when my biggest worry was whether I’d be picked for the football team and when one of my favourite things was to hear the latest story written by my older sister, Alice.
Alice had a thing about stories. Not just an amazing talent for making them up and writing them down, but also a strange and firm belief that every story started should be finished. She said an unfinished story was a terrible thing: an unfulfilled dream and unlived lives for all the characters within it. So, every story she began, she finished, no matter how rubbish it might have been or how silly the ending. They all had to have one – an ending.
Until the day one of them didn’t.
My sister disappeared on a Friday in February, the day school finished for half-term. It was ordinary in most ways, except that it happened to be the day before the Summoning. On the walk home from school, I was on the lookout for Likenesses: little dolls fashioned from straw or cloth, each made to resemble someone. I’d already noticed a few in the morning, but during the day more had appeared in windows and on doorsteps of the houses I passed.
I stopped to stare at a Likeness propped next to a flowerpot in a nearby garden. It always struck me how strange it was that, each year, everyone in the town made these dolls and put them on display.
‘No weirder than dressing up as ghosts and vampires and everything for Hallowe’en on one night of the year,’ was Alice’s view.
‘But that happens in loads of places,’ I said. ‘The Summoning is just here in Fiddler’s Hollow.’
‘Lots of towns have strange old traditions,’ Alice had replied. ‘But they’re usually things like cheese festivals or maypole dancing, not something creepy like ours.’
I had to admit the Summoning was a bit creepy. On this one night of every year, someone, either living or dead, could be ‘Summoned’ by the creation of their Likeness. It was said that if the person who made it wanted it badly enough, and the Likeness was good enough, it would work and the maker could then ask the Summoned a question. Just one. After that, they could never Summon that person again.
Of course, no one ever seemed to know anyone who had successfully Summoned another person, although there were plenty of tales of it happening to somebody’s uncle’s third cousin’s son.
In the evening, there was always a huge bonfire in the market square when all the Likenesses were burned. Lots of people came just for this part, even if they hadn’t made a doll, because there were stalls selling toasted marshmallows and roasted nuts, hot chocolate and warm, spiced apple juice.
It was a game of mine, every year, to try to recognise who the dolls were meant to be. Some, like the ones made by the lady who worked in the knitting shop, were excellent – but I still couldn’t tell who they were. Others, like Tommy Parker’s from my class, looked barely human – but his was recognisable by the numbered shirt and football strip of his favourite player. Then there were the mad: a grey felt dog called Fenchurch who’d been missing for more than a year; the bad: Jack the Ripper made by Mr Sherwood, the history teacher, who spent his spare time working on theories to tr
y and unmask the killer’s identity.
I reached the white painted gate of a cottage set back from the road. Next to the front door was a small figure of straw. This was one of the sad: the same little figure made every year by the old man who lived in the cottage.
It was a boy, with fair hair and glasses. Every year it wore the same clothes, and the same little pair of old-fashioned spectacles, but every year its features were a little wonkier, as the old man’s eyesight grew worse.
No one really talked to the man, so people didn’t know who the boy was. Some said that it was his son who had been taken away by the man’s wife and never seen again; others said that the boy had died, and once I’d heard a horrid story that it was a little boy unknown to the man whom he had knocked down and killed in his car by accident. So many stories and none of them happy . . . except one.
Alice said she thought the story went like this: the man was a time traveller and wanted to use the Likeness to speak to himself as a little boy, asking him questions about things that he had long forgotten about. To Alice, everything was a story and hers was the one I wanted to believe.
I moved on past, pulling leaves from the hedge, trying to decide whether to make a Likeness or not. Alice usually did, but she was the creative one, not me.
By the time I reached Cuckoo Lane, the street where we lived, the sky was dark and a thin slice of moon dangled above the little shop on the corner. Our house was number 35, a short way down. It was an old house, which looked tiny from the front, but was surprisingly large inside, stretching back much longer than it was wide. When I went in, the house was warm and the smell of something delicious was wafting from the kitchen.
I hung my keys on the hook in the hallway and went through to the living room, where a fire had been lit in the grate. A basket of logs and a bucket of coal sat on the hearth, and our cat, Twitch, was sprawled out asleep in front of it, her black coat gleaming in the firelight. I held my cold fingers up to the heat. I could hear a little tune being hummed in the kitchen. I followed it and found Alice leaning over the cooker, stirring a large pot.